Alone in the island..

Date: 12nd April, 2008..
Time in MALAYSIA: 0415..(13rd April, 2008..)
Time in FRANKFURT: 2200..

Since yesterday been a chiller boy..
From Today the 12nd April, 2008..Saturday
To next Wednesday the 16th April, 2008..
I have a 5 days free..
Oh my GOD..
I really don't have any idea what should I do..
For last time in my home..
I might go out with buddies for a movie or coffee..
But now..
I felt so empty in a sudden..

But luckily..
I have to replace Kevin for his working shift on Tuesday..
From 0500 to 1400..
Why have to replace him??
Because he is going to the "Staff Party" on Monday Night..
He will enjoy himself till the next day morning..

But I am not going..
Because I don't like clubbing life..
Too much liquor can cause you drunk..
Too much smoke can cause you hard to breathe..
Too loud for the music can cause you heart attack..
Too sharp for the lighting can cause you blind..
That is not my life-style..

In the same time..
In the morning when I woke up..
My family call me from MALAYSIA..
I felt so happy and supprised..
My mum asked me to be more careful..
DO NOT SMOKE..
"Hell no..I hate most", I answered..
DO NOT DRUNK..
"Sure..I drink beer for against the coldness when I need to..", I answered..
These are my priciples to survive..
These are my promises to all the people who waiting me home..

I believe that everyone also have their own principles of life-style..
But how strong are the principles??
For me..
Weak at home..Strong at outside..
Why??
Because this is a kind of self protect effect..
Because this is a kind of self training as well..

In GERMANY..
All of my colleagues..
They smoke cigarettes just like eating rice..
They drink liquors just like drinking plain water..
They love to mix arround..
They love to go clubbing..
They love to make party at home daily..
They love to porn and blue films..
Those are their culture and lifestyle..
But not mine..

Should I follow??
No..Why??
Because it is not my lifestyle or culture..
Because it is not the reason for me to survive..
I still have my family..
I still have my loving one..
I still have my friends and buddies..
I still have my buddhist association juniors..
These are the reason for me to survive..
These are the promises to them and myself as well..

Although the feeling is like staying alone in the island..
Just like Robinson Cruisoe..
But there are also a kind of joyce..
Joyce of standing still..
Joyce of growing up..
Joyce of keeping promises..

"No need to say it out loudly;
But need to proof it out proudly.."
(This is a phrase from me..)

So Mama..
Do not worry me..
I will take good care of myself..
Although these 5 days are quite long and boring..
Although these 5 months are quite long and boring..
But I had brought the some buddhist mettha and novels along with me..
So I will read them when I am free..
Otherwise I will watch CNN to spend my free time..
Besides..I had promised to take buddhist exam when I am back to HUI YIN SEH..

So Papa..
Sometimes I will feel regret as well..
But this is a golden chances for me..
So although the day is tough..
I also will stand strong till the day I am back..
That day is the day to proof that I really make it..
That day is the day to proof that I really keep my promises..
That day is the day to proof that I really I had learnt somethings..
That day is the day to proof that I really I really grow up..
I won't melt down so easily..
Because I am from WONG's family..
Because I have the best gien from WONG and LEE's family..
Because the WONG's blood is flowing in my body every second..

Loving myself..
Is just like loving everyone arround me..
Especially my family and loving one..
Responsible to myself..
Is just like responsible to everyone arround me..
Especially my family and loving one..

Praying for my Papa and Mama..
Praying for my Bro and Sis..
Praying for my Miss Peggy..
Praying for my friends and buddies..
Praying for all my juniors..
Love and Miss you all..

Frm: HUNG, the lovely chef..